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Name: mattea
Gender: Female
Interests: God (all of him), guitar, running, U2, Counting Crows, Sister Hazel, Matt Wertz, Dave Barnes, Chris Tomlin, Duct tape, Young Life, Youth Group, Lord of the Rings, Pirates of the Carribean, Speed, Dwayne, the Green Lantern, Wesley, frisbee, Napolean Dynamite, Dispatch, Third Eye Blind, Aladdin, new music, backpacking, being outside, being with friends, having downtime, my brothers, sisters-in-law, nephew Avery...
Expertise: procrastinating at life
Occupation: Supervisory
Industry: Nonprofit
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  mattea001
Member Since:
6/24/2004
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| I am sitting in Kirkhof listening to some beautiful piano playing and thinking, and remembered the existence of Xanga. beautiful music makes me think, so here is something going on in my brain:
Life is full of weird lines i can't see clearly...
where is the line between trust in God and laziness?
stupidity
ignorance?
where is the line between God being silent and me ignoring him?
between God's will and satan's destruction?
between focusing on community/fellowship and being ___ of your duties?
love and blindness?
pursuit of righteousness and hate?
rest and responsibility?
People often talk about God's will being a narrow path to follow. I believe the path to God is narrow and hard, but that doesn't mean his will for our lives is. We were created to explore, to pursue, to be creative, to live! A friend once described to me that maybe its not a thin line to follow, but a rushing river to jump into. I continue to agree more and more.
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| I'm packing up for a summer at SpringHill Indiana... much training and trials await. But more than that, lots of laughter and love!
God will do big things this summer (like he always does).
keep in touch friends :)
SpringHill Camps
Summer Staff
ATTN: me
2221 W State Road 258
Seymour, Indiana 47274
Peace!
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| woa, 2 entries in a row, impressive! here is what's on my mind:
Lately I've been thinking that I don't want to "live the American dream" of being wealthy. It isn't too hard to accept at this point, being a college student. I've been thinking about my next year at school, wondering what jobs and groups to stay with in order to earn an income to pay the bills and get the assignments done, while still having a life. Last year the ends barely met financially with my two jobs and scholarships. This year, tuition is getting raised because I am a junior, and my MEAP scholarship is done which has caused me to be concerned. Last night received a letter telling me my Grand Valley scholarship is not being renewed because I was short a credit. I cried. I was frustrated. I slept poorly. Needless to say, I was a little worried about how I would be coming up with another 3 thousand dollars next year after working at camp.
This morning I was laying in the dentist chair telling the nurse about my major, about the awesome summer coming up, about last summer, about my weekends, and about working at the store. As she scratched and prodded at my teeth and gums I thought about how I currently have no debt, about how ends did meet when I thought they wouldn't, and how all kinds of things "just kind of worked out" in the most obscure ways. It wasn't accidental or destiny...
God shows himself in the most random places, but he knows what works.
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| God is good.
that is all... really.
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